Dance, music is my world

: kpopangel; August 25th, 10:22

Current Location:: damned office

Current Mood:: optimistic

Hee i know this news was up few days ago but i only happen to see this few mins. ago.. reading this makes me feel slightly better as they did mention that they'd like to keep the group, just like what shinhwa did back then, even though they move on to a different company. And I'm sure this is not just any other rumour since i saw it in KBS World very own Web site, which I trust to be pretty reliable.
Though I still wonder how come yunho and changmin didn't stick together with the three...
Well... Anyways, let's keep the faith and just hope for the best for our boys =)
I'm sure things would turn out for the better!

Source: http://world.kbs.co.kr/english/entertainment/enter_chart_detail.htm?No=10282

TVXQ vs. SM Entertainment Trial Begins
(2009-08-21)

Three members of TVXQ – Hero Jae-jung, Xia Jun-su, and Micky Yu-cheon – want to part with their management agency SM Entertainment, but do not wish to break up the team. In a hearing held at the Seoul District Court late Friday morning the three members’ legal representative from the law firm Shin & Kim (also known as Sejong Law Firm) spoke about how the group’s contract is unfair and how the profit has not been distributed properly. SM Entertainment countered it by claiming that the agency incurred loss for four straight years while the members were in training and the profit payment was carried out fair and square.

During the hearing the lawyer said that the three members want to move to another agency, but also want to continue on their careers as TVXQ. The Shin & Kim lawyer cited another long-running K-pop group, Shinhwa, as an example of group members belonging to different agencies, yet working together.

The hearing reportedly went on with both sides fiercely arguing their positions. The court said that a mediation period can be set aside, if the two parties agreed, and recommended that the two parties settle the case to wrap up the proceeding quickly. Meanwhile, 120 thousand of TVXQ fans have filed a petition against SM Entertainment’s unfair long-term contract to the Seoul District Court on Thursday.

Tags: breakup, dbsk, rumor

another boring post

: kpopangel; January 25th, 20:49

Current Location:: outer space.. hohoho

Current Mood:: silly

Current Music:: You're My Melody

another quiet evening... hmm... what's so special today.... let's see.... it's CNY tomorrow!! woohoo~ time to partyyy ^^ i bet some people in other part of the world is gonna have a blast tomorrow.. and y'know who's this particular group of people i'm referring to... hellooo.. it's our pretty Jaejoongie's bday tomorrow.. wheee.. how i wish i were in korea.. ahaha.. perhaps i'd get lucky and manage to catch him in sight.. hohoho fat hope...
how i wish i could wish him 'saeng-il chuka haeyo' personally XD but heck! no such luck, i suppose.... so.. all i can do is pray for the best for him and the rest our uber lovely dbsk boys... and only wish and wish..
*sigh* if only i could see them in sm town live bangkok.. geez... what's wrong with the protesters and airport shutdown? (hmm. no offense).. otherwise, i would've been able to catch 'em live in action last November.. but.... hmm it's okay, i guess.. at least everything seems to be fine now ^^

hope to be able to see them during their 3rd Asia tour.. is it too unreasonable to wish that they would come to some countries nearby.. hmmmm.. say, M'sia?? ohhhh how i wish they would o^^o
XDDD

enough of silly rambling... (but hey.. who cares.. it's my own journal, for goodness sake ^^)
anywaysss... to all who celebrate.. Happy Lunar New Year everyone!! Gong Xi Fa Cai... wish you a prosperous year ahead... and.... lots of hong baos heh.. heh... Have a blast!! don't overeat, everyone ^^ :DDD
To those who don't, hope you've got a few days off work/school or something.. hmm.. that'd be nice.. happy holidayss once againn

Tags: high, rambling, rambling...

meme ...

: kpopangel; January 8th, 16:25

Current Location:: multimedia room

Current Mood:: amused

Current Music:: rain drops

Have been tagged by Eli (Anim22) to answer this, so yeah...

a. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.
b. Tag six people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

1. What type of food do you like most?
greasy ones... lol.. nah.. i'll have to say it's spicy foods.. i love korean food as well! lol that one's a given

2. How do you style your hair?
most of the times i just leave it the way it is simply cos i'm lazy (i have long, straight hair that I almost got bored with), sometimes i'd use curling thongs.. and only for some important occasions, i'd jazz it up ^^ ahah.. poor hair

3. What is making you happy right now?
being at home, i guess... can't really say i'm THAT happy.. i'd only be truly happy if I could finally get my student's pass and my problem with the residency status there cleared... ^^

4. Who is your favorite singer?
i try not to be biased, but i can't! it's gotta be jaejoong from dbsk.. what a vocal prowess.. i love junsu's unique vocals too.. other than those, it'd be jihoon and hyesung's voice (remember Group S, everyone)? ^^ lol.. i just realized all my faves were K-pop singers =D

5. Do you need music to study/write?
("write angst" lol at Eli's answer for this Q ^^) well as for myself, i can't study with music cos i know i'd start humming to the tunes and start my own karaoke session.. i just can't listen to a song and don't do anything.. aish... if i were studying, i'd probably forget everything i was memorizing/reading.. as for writing whilst listening to music, it's okay.. cos it relaxes your mind and gives you inspiration ^^ (hmm.. makes sense? no?? >.<")

6. What was the last book you read?
some good old novel by Mitch Albom, i guess... i'm reading mags all the time XD

7. What was your first car?
when i first learn how to drive.. it was a Toyota car.. forgot which one ^^

8. Do you have a crush at the moment?
aww, no.. don't even think about it anymore.. maybe the time hasn't come yet.. but i'm enjoying my "lonely" life a lot now. heh.

9. What is your favorite movie genre?
romantic comedy.. and perhaps, thriller... i hate sci-fi, for some reasons...

10. What was the last thing you ate today?
it's a home-cooked meal but i won't tell xD oh.. and a good ol' toblerone *yum*

11. What’s your morning routine?
morning? morning hates me.. and i hate it too xD most of the time i woke up in the afternoon.. gosh... disgusting right.. but that's the way i am... not a morning person... if i do wake up early cos of school or work, i'd drink a cup of coffee and then... go to sleep again.. j/k.. most of the time rushing to school cos i'm late.. but that was all in the past ^^

12. What websites do you visit daily?
friendster, facebook, LJ

13.What kind of relationship do you want?
I want a relationship whereby we give each other some kind of freedom. I need some space.. and i think it's only right to share your time and priority fairly between work, love, family and friends. i'm not the kind of person who lets go of everything else when i've found myself a boyfriend.. it's not to say that i don't want commitment.. all i meant is that we give each other a much needed space.. i'm not a clingy person and i couldn't stand one. Oh, trust is definitely needed as well.

14. Which languages do you wish you spoke?
i wish it was Korean.. and i do wish that my Mandarin reading/writing skills was much better..

15. What is your favorite PS game?
easy.. that'd be FFVIII ^___^ and star ocean too

16. What are you daydreaming about right now?
about going to Korea one day.. and oh.. attending DBSK's Asia tour?

17. Who are your current favourite korean artistes?
DBSK, Andy Shinhwa, H.O.T (the ex-members, i mean.. but to me H.O.T is still alive!), Big Bang (well, still pretty much the same).

18. Where would you like your next holiday to be?
i hope it'd be seoul.. or... the more realistic one would be somewhere not too far from singapore

19. What is your favorite korean song at the moment?
it's a close tie between Forever Love and Mirotic (both DBSK songs) but the winner is Forever Love.. that song melts me <3

20. Tell me something you love about the person who tagged you.
My parents always told me that i could be such a poor judge of character sometimes.. but let me try my 'psychic' talents here (as she always claimed i possess one lol)...
She's a cheerful, determined, strong-willed person.. an easygoing person, i guess? let me try my 'psychic' talents here..
and i love that she's so committed to her writings.. though she keeps us waiting sometimes, she always makes sure she continued her writings.. and one more, i love her creative, juicy ideas in writing stories.. oh how i hate her... ^____^

The people I'd tag.... hmm... i couldn't think of 5 persons' name at the moment.. i'll come up with some names in the future, i promise ^^

Tags: q&a

SM Concert...

: kpopangel; November 26th, 2008

Current Location:: still singapore

Current Mood:: confused

Just when i thought it's merely two days away and i've got everything ready... tickets ordered from long time ago... then suddenly the news break out.. that the airport was closed, situation getting worse, etc... in dilemma now.. should i go or should i just forget it.. everyone i know had been asking me not to go.. even from last week T.T
and with this current situation, i don't think my Mom would ever let me go... aish~ of all time.. why must the protesters do that now.....
can't believe that SM still proceed with the concert despite this turmoil... but then, i'm not in bangkok so i don't really know what happened there and how bad the safety is there at the moment...
i pray for all SM artistes' and fans' safety... hope everything would go well...
aish~ what to do.....

Tags: bangkok, festival, sm

randomness

: kpopangel; October 25th, 2008

Current Mood:: anxious

Current Music:: none *afraid of disturbing the others and there's no headset nearby*

Happen to find this quiz from fellow dbsk fan's page (in LJ) but couldn't recall who's that.. anyways.. just for fun.. and tada~ here comes the result ^^

Which dbsk member are you? Your Result: Xiah Junsu Xiah Junsu? Well, let's see... You have a cute and adorable aura around you that people cant resist. You love cracking jokes and puns on the scene when there is obvious tension in the room. Cheering up is your specialty. You hate it when friends are fighting and tend to cry if they do. You would love to have a positive outlook on the world, because you are somewhat negative. You may seem like you're perfect but your not, just close. And just like junsu, you excell in schoolwork! YOU'RE A XIAH JUNSU!!!
Micky Yoochun
Hero JaeJoong
Max Changmin
U-know Yuhno
Which dbsk member are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

"You would love to have a positive outlook on the world, because you are somewhat negative." Hmm spot on! *ponders* wonder why i never get jaejoong as the result *pouts*.. normally when i chanced upon quizzes like these, i'd get Yunho as the answer.. lol could it be cos i often chose "dancing" as my answer.. lol.. similarly, for similar quizzes for shinhwa members, i'd almost always get a Minwoo as the answer and never an Andy xD Anyways... i love junsuuuu! so i'm not complaining :D JaeSu ftw! oh YunJae too <3

And.... i got my Mirotic album last week.. thanks to my very kind cousin who helped me get it during her trip to Japan.. and woww.. wasn't the packaging awesome *jaw-dropped* and there's even a poster that came along with it.. now i regretted not getting the version B as well (my reasoning back then was cos there's no subs and there's no way i could entirely understand what they're saying).. sob* ~only to find out that there's a discount given for both the version A and B purchased together.. now i'm thinking whether it makes sense to order from yesasia.. or perhaps try to wait and see if hmv singapore will have it in these few weeks.. (a friend working there said that it might be ordered in 1-2 weeks time).. *back to spazzing mode*
Signing off... with love. ~Ann~

Tags: quizzes, random

reflection..

: kpopangel; October 24th, 2008

Current Location:: same old place

Current Mood:: thankful

Current Music:: mltr - that's why (you go away)

Warnings: boring post below.. don't read if you can't stand it!

"No Excuse Sunday"

To make it possible for everyone to attend church this Sunday, we are going to have a special "No Excuse Sunday":

Cots will be placed in the foyer for those who say, "Sunday is my only day to sleep in."

There will be a special section with lounge chairs for those who feel that our pews are too hard.

Eye drops will be available for those with tired eyes from watching TV late Saturday night.

We will have steel helmets for those who say, "The roof would cave in if I ever came to church."

Blankets will be furnished for those who think the church is too cold, and fans for those who say it is too hot.

Scorecards will be available for those who wish to list the hypocrites present.

Relatives and friends will be in attendance for those who can't go to church and cook dinner, too.

We will distribute "Stamp Out Stewardship" buttons for those that feel the church is always asking for money.

One section will be devoted to trees and grass for those who like to seek God in nature.

Doctors and nurses will be in attendance for those who plan to be sick on Sunday.

The sanctuary will be decorated with both Christmas poinsettias and Easter lilies for those who never have seen the church without them.

We will provide hearing aids for those who can't hear the preacher and cotton wool for those who can.

Author Unknown
From the Joyful Noiseletter

Anyone found the scenario above familiar? Ironic... but it's always easy to forget Him in our busy lives (or even not-so-busy ones :P).. it's easy to claim "He didn't care for me" in times of troubles yet in better times, we easily forget about Him..
i might've said that He'd forgotten me, that He didn't even care to help me in whatever i've gone through for these past six months... but.. when i think again, He'd never once left my side.. He's been by my side through my every problems, He's there for me through the presence of my friends, who never got tired from my endless rantings and complaints, through the kind people who often cook for me every evening (you know who you are :P), through supportive parents and siblings i have, through the "long-lost" cousin of mine who's suddenly there again to give me advice (thanks.. i really appreciate it..), through every little bit of joy i could find in my dance or music classes, through everyone who've always told me to "never give up", right till this moment.. He's always been there.. it's just me who chose not to see.. it's me who's blinded by... by my own troubles, pain.. i can only see the pains that i forgot to count my blessings, to see that He does not forget me... not ever.

Now.. no matter what i've done or what i'm gonna do, i'd try my best to do all that i can, for the rest of the time i had left here.. so that when i look back, i can tell myself that 'hey, it's okay.. things don't always work out as what you want them to be.. but at least you tried your best.. He knows the best for you.. if it's meant to be yours, you'll have it.. if it's not, it's not... you can never force it'..
Even if i have to leave, at least i leave with no regrets.. and i'd forever miss them... my friends.. my second family, whose presence i've been taking for granted for all this time.. i'm glad to be given this chance to stay here.. i never once regret anything about it... i'm thankful... i'm blessed... Thanks God... you've been so kind to me.. please keep on guiding me through the rest of this journey... i'd never forget all happiness and joy i've had here, even the most short-lived ones.
Thanks for all your support. (you guys know who you are :)).

Tags: random, rantings

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: kpopangel; October 21st, 2008

Current Location:: living rm (where else?)

Current Mood:: contemplative

Current Music:: Silence (literally)

Got tagged by Ying unnie <lj user="jakiwumi"> *whom i always remembered as jakiwumi_unnie xP* to answer these Q's.. hee thanks for tagging, unnie.. so here i am.. trying to come up with the most coherent and logical answer possible, considering it's past midnight here and my brain kinda slows down during this time ~~*not like it's normally fast in the day though xP*~~

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Well.. yeah i think it'd be so abnormal if one doesn't have any :P

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
As for me, I can't really picture myself with younger man.. let alone "boy" xP ~~*thank God Jaejoong-sshi is older*~~

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
Yes, yes and yes.. that's where i met those wonderful people in my life ^____^ apart from my online friends, of course.. lol and i love ARTS classes xD

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
SGD? USD? NTD? lol anyways, a billion is a HUGEEE amount.. lol well.. donate to a good cause, bring my family to travel around the world, with Korea as #1 destination! (esp. my Mom cos she loves travelling more than anything in this world).. well, for the rest, i'd start my own small business so that i won't have to work for other people ever XD (lol i know i dream too much), and the rest, i'd use it to COMPLETE MY COLLECTION OF DBSK and SHINHWA and H.O.T stuffs. cos now i'm kinda broke to do so and it's practically impossible.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Personally, I believe in pure platonic friendship and so far i've never found myself falling for my besties.. :P

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I agree with Ying unnie.. it's to be loved by someone.. but how great it'd be if it's mutual, right? <3

7. List out your 5 fave yaoi couple. [in your world]
Doesn't have to be real life's couple right? xD I'd say they're:
YunxJae
The 3 couples in Junjou Romantica (lol i'm not being lazy but i forgot their names)
KyuMin (inspired by an awesome fanfic which story revolves around dbsk+suju boys' life as pirates (i forgot the title x_x)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
It's a no-go. i'd never go there and break other people's relationship, unlike some girls out there *fan fan fan myself*

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
That I've great pple as my family and friends.. not forgetting my housemates too..

10. Do you have any regrets?
Yes, I've a lot.. perhaps cos I'm an impulsive person thus often making decision I come to regret....

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
A married career woman (hopefully) and have part time job which involves singing :) yeah i lurrrveee it

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
God (my pillar of strength when nobody else's around nor understand my woes), my parents, friends *hugs everyone, except the first one* xD lol lame..

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
I might be wrong, but from what I see, she's a very mature, patient, caring and compassionate lady... she's the one who put her family first before everything else... oh, she loves to write in her spare time (lol like, duh)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
perhaps single and rich.. at least, i also have a chance to find a good guy and settle down eventually, right?

15. What is your favourite colour?
The colour of this text.. and this too

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Of course, but only to the one deserving it.. i've learned as i grew up, that though you've given your all, things still might not work out... if it's only one-sided.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one I have more chemistry with, and the one who cared for me most. Well but is it that simple in real life? *shakes head*

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I can forgive but not forget (agree with unnie once more)

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
both have their perks and downsides.. for now, i prefer being single.. then i've more me-time... but if the right one comes along, I couldn't be happier...

20. 6 people I have tagged: (just chose randomly, those who comes to my mind at the moment ;))
<lj user="vanity_above"> ~ read her fic once and it creates a deep impression for me.. wish she'd write moarrr :P
<lj user="anim22"> ~ love her fics, especially the one where yunho is the cab driver, and her "Lies", of course
<lj user="razra_eizel"> ~ love her fluff and her style of writing *don't know how to describe*
<lj user="akioflove"> ~ amazing yunjae!fic writer from SG :)
<lj user="zorata"> ~ read her "wishing on a purple box" (if i'm not mistaken) and i was so touched.. missed her writings!!

Hope you gurls answer the questions too and tag more pple.. so random, i know.. but hey, 'twas fun to do in your free time :D

P.S.: Turns out i still can't do the lj cuts.. normally it's working but i dunno why this one didn't.. enlighten me, someone? :))

Tags: q&a, quizzes, tagged

In loving memory, on this 4th anniversary of her demise

: kpopangel; October 4th, 2008

Current Location:: somewhere on earth

Current Music:: wish you were here

Wish you were here, 婆婆.. miss you so much... can never see you anymore except in my dreams... i'm sorry for not cherishing you and be a good granddaughter when you're still around... sorry i wasn't even there when you departed, sorry for not being able to visit you.. i hope you forgive me for everything... for talking back to you, for not listening to what you said.
if only we could turn back time... but i love you, i love you a lot... thanks for being a wonderful grandma that you are... we might never said it, but we love you so much.. please continue to watch over our family from above.. we miss you so much...

Tags: family, love, po po, reminiscing

亲爱的,那不是爱情

: kpopangel; October 4th, 2008

Current Location:: somewhere on earth

Current Mood:: sick

Current Music:: angela zhang shao han - qin ai de, na bu shi ai qing

No matter how I wait I can't go next to you, crying
You only gave me pain and you didn't know me.. Are you telling me to leave?

I miss you, I miss you
To the point where I hate myself..
and everyone's calling me a fool.. i am a fool.. a big fool indeed...
for still holding on to whatever hope i thought exists, when there's no such hope...
I want to cry..I want to kneel down
And if only everything didn't happen..
The memories where I loved you crazily..
Those memories haunt me
But i cant hide from this love any longer.

The short times I could not even remember
because the beginning of all the hurt

Now you can no longer stay
And behind your faded image, the sadness haunts me again

I could not admit the long time and our broken promise Only if we could

Although I try to be patient
Although I try to erase the past
I can not stop, but to have only thoughts of you

I can not erase you
The tears and hurt that do not dry
Have become hard for me to bear

I guess nothing else can be done except for this
The path that leads to you
I think I can touch it if I hold out my hands
That is why I came this far,
holding onto a childish expectation

As the 'love' grew deeper,
I was in more pain
Each day, several times,
I shed tears without you knowing
Many many nights..

Where are you
This path has become smeared with tears
My heart that cannot be told
Why is love avoiding me?
Why isn't it coming to me?
I wanted and wanted it so much..

So bad..a person a like you..
Why did you take my heart without my permission?
I'm living with so much difficulty
But you don't even know.

I know.. that its not me you want
That i'm not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye, a minute of your time
But sometimes cant you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again it's the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.

Yesterday, I laid my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles
I won't cry, I won't say a thing as you leave me
I know that I can survive as I knew this break up was coming

Forget about it all, how much my heart wants to call you name
Suddenly the sadness hits me and I shudder
And so time passes without any explanation

I can't have you any more, anymore
You've taken a place in my memories
I'm left with a cruel scar of love, of foolishness
I feel like I can't live another day
And sometimes tears fall...

But hey, I'll live
Maybe you'll hate me for that
But I miss you so much that I can't wait a moment longer
do you understand me?
I try to forget all about you
(did you really love me?)

To: someone who I once loved, and still do even till this moment, as i was typing these.
But fret not, I'd be able to let go of you.. someday, somehow. I'd always remember what you said to me "never love a person who doesn't love you back". Thanks for the lesson... Thanks for letting me feel that sense of security, even if only for a short while, though most of the time we're quarreling or having arguments (though you won't admit it). Thanks for wiping away my tears, but now I want to hate you, I am getting really tired of shedding any more tears for you.. All I could say now is, you're a great, great pretender. You'd make a very good actor, I should say.. everything's flawless.. and i hate myself for falling into this, for falling for you... cos you never really did care.... you got so agitated and defensive just cos i mentioned her name... what do you take me for all these time, then? another bundle to cuddle with? another temp lover? can it be even called love? if you said yes, then you don't seem to know the meaning of love at all... you said it feels so right when we're together.. then you told me it'd never be "us", that you'd be better off alone than "receiving my care"... maybe it was never us even since the beginning... funny thing is, we have never even had our picture taken together before.... did you realize that? maybe i'm just not worthy for you... but now all these don't matter anymore, i guess... no matter what i do, you're still gone. you still left me all alone again. you claimed you're always there, but where's the truth?

In a moment I might feel like borrowing
your sagging shoulders.

This is as far as I think I can go.
Go back to the beginning when we were strangers.

I hope that if we meet again, it won't be awkward
because of the short confusing time we were together.

Could you think of my feelings for just a little bit?

Truly wish you all the best.. i wish i could hate you... but no... really hope you'd find your happiness... that you can't find in me. Thanks for the lovely September.. i'd never forget it for the rest of my life. But September has long ended, and i need to wake up and be my old self again. I'm doing well before you come into my life, now I'd be fine too...

"你說過牽了手就算約定
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像來不及許願的流星
再怎麼美麗也只能是曾經
太美的承諾因為太年輕
但親愛的那並不是愛情
就像是精靈住錯了森林
那愛情錯的很透明"

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

[Separated - Usher]

Tags: 'love', goodbye

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: kpopangel; September 20th, 2008

Current Location:: bed

Current Mood:: blank

Current Music:: solitude love - lee jae won

Letting Go Takes Love

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
   it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
   it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
   but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
   the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
   it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
   but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
   but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
   but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
   but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
   it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
   but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
   but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
   but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
   but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
   but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
      Remember: The time to love is short

------ author unknown

Tags: letting go, poem

midnight girl

: kpopangel; September 19th, 2008

Current Location:: living rm

Current Mood:: cranky

Current Music:: Last Angel - DBSK, Purple Line - DBSK, Darkness Eyes - DBSK

You're always on mind
think about you all the time
There's nobody in this world
like you that I could ever find
I can see you
only during midnight so I just sit tight
and wait for the minuets
and hours to just pass by

Now I can only see you in my dreams
Even if I extend out my hand, I can't reach you
Are you really not in the world I live in anymore?

Everything I do, everything I endure
Is to make sure that my love for you never changes
Disregarding if it's the truth, or if it can happen
It doesn't matter if you appear in my dreams
I wouldn't be able to hold you, but I could feel you
It would seem as if you were right next to me
I want to stay here with you forever
But when morning arrives and I open my eyes..
I want to forget you once more

If I could see you in my dreams
If I could hold you in my arms
If we could remember how much we loved each other
Then I hope that I never wake up

I guess it only comes true on the TV screen
There isn't a such thing as forever, there isn't a word for eternity
How about it? Does your heart hurt as much as mine does?
If this is the end and I can't turn back time
Then I hope that it's all a dream

Every night when I fall asleep
I want to ask you
If you really loved me
The only memories I cherish are the ones when I loved you

If I could see you in my dreams
If I could hold you in my arms
If we could remember how much we loved each other
Then I hope that I never wake up

Tags: random, rantings

Sad

: kpopangel; September 15th, 2008

Current Location:: hell

Current Mood:: sad

Sebelum bertemu denganmu
Diriku bahagia
Semenjak bertemu denganmu
Ku makin bahagia
Semakin lama aku
Semakin tau tentang engkau
Sedikit kecewa
Ternyata engkau tak baik
Pertama tama semua manis
Yang engkau berikan
Membuat aku merasakan
Cinta sebenarnya
Semakin hari
Semakin terungkap
Yang sesungguhnya
Kumakin kecewa
Ternyata kau penuh dusta

Reff:

Maafkan ku harus pergi
Ku tak suka dengan ini
Aku tak bodoh
Seperti kekasihmu yang lain
Terima kasih oh Tuhan
Tunjukkan siapa dia
Maaf kita putus
So thank you so much
I'm sorry, goodbye

i must be bored out of my mind lol~

: kpopangel; August 8th, 2008

Current Location:: my new apartment

Current Mood:: excited

Current Music:: exile - tada ai takute

Got tagged in facebook notes by fellow dbsk fans.. and here i come with the totally biased answers.... lol

~Who is your favorite?
Jaejoong and Junsu ^^ but actually, i love all.. really.. seriously..

~Who seems the most huggable?
jaejoong and yunho *dodge stones thrown by YooSuMin fangirls*

~Who has the best smile, Yunho or Junsu ?
.. junsu is cute, but i gotta choose yunho.. cos his subtle smile is so sweet and it's killing me *rawrrr*

~How do you rank them?
1. Jaejoong
2. Junsu
3. Changmin
4. Yunho
5. Yoochun

I'm confused for no. 3 and 4 as i like them equally.. as for no. 5.. sorry chunnie... ^^;;

~If you were to steal one and stuff him in a bag, who would you choose?
boojaejoongie ^^ if he could fit in my bag, that is... haha *runs away from his yunnie bear*

~What do you admire most about your favorite?
his passion for singing, his lovely beautiful vocals, his frankness, his ability of preparing 15 dishes easily, his high tolerance for spicy foods (i love spicy food myself), the fact that he always seem to have fun in whatever programs they're in and wherever they are, his sweet, shy smile, his hearty laughter.. okay.. too much information O.O and that's perhaps only 1/10 of things i love about him <333

~You see Changmin and Yoochun hugging what do you do?
i'll tell junsu straight away.. lol j/k.. it's okay.. they're brothers :D

~If you spent the whole day with all DBSK members, where would you go and what would you do?
i'll get jaejoongie to sing for me (and see his trademark "wink" or his lack of ability for it xD), yunho to show his killer dance moves, junsu for his dolphin voice and sexy hip thrusts ~~*sssh it's the pervy!side of me speaking here*~~ , i'd like to play games with changmin to see if i can outwit him, and finally, i'd like to talk more with yoochunnie.. as he's the one who could converse in english best.. yup.. and perhaps asking him to play piano for me.. hahahaha.. kill me for being greedy.. but you can't really blame me, can you? the boys are just THAT irresistible.. omg.. i gotta go get a life xD

Tags: dbsk quiz, random, tagged

"o" jung.ban.hap T.T

: kpopangel; July 4th, 2008

Current Location:: still the same

Current Mood:: confused

Current Music:: "o" jung.ban.hap (playing on my mind)

Regarding my previous post... just got an email from a friend i've got to know from PL dance class.. and this is what she says..

Hi Ann and Jayce!

Yixian here from the purple line dance class!

They just updated the celine jessandra website with the O jung ban hup dance class! I think they have quite a few ppl for sat class. so if u want to sign up, hurry!!

O Jung Ban Hap (DBSK) - SGD $100.00 for 10 sessions!

Tuesday Class

Time: 7:30pm - 8:30pm

Duration: 1 hour per session

Commencement Date: 8th July 2008

Thursday Class

Time: 7:30pm - 8:30pm

Duration: 1 hour per session

Commencement Date: 10th July 2008

Saturday Classes

Time: 5pm - 6pm and 6pm - 7pm

Duration: 1 hour per session

Commencement Date: 12th July 2008

*Limited Places Only! Sign Up with us Now! ^^

*Terms and Conditions apply for all the above mentioned courses.

For further enquiries, please call Clement or Celine at 6254-0702 for more details regarding our courses

Hoaa *runs to the corner of the room and cries*.. i can't believe i'm gonna miss this.. hoaaa how how how.. since i'll be overseas till 24th while the class (i opted for Sat classes) would've already started by the 12th.. i'm going to miss two sessions.. and for two sessions, you can actually miss quite a lot.. argh shall i go? shall i go? or shall i not? will i be able to catch up if i'm only there for the third week? *ponders*

Tags: dance, love

away~

: kpopangel; July 3rd, 2008

Current Location:: on top of my comfy bed

Current Mood:: indescribable

Current Music:: dbsk - purple line

Hi hi... this is me again.. anyways, i will be away for three weeks starting from tomorrow.. and will come online less often, i guess.. has been busy with so many stuffs.. moving apartment, searching for job, etc, etc.. sob sob.. gonna miss chatting on msn, miss the writers at Detox, and friends @ LJ.. gonna miss my dance classes@SW.. and most of all, the 10 sessions of "O" dance class@CJSOPA (why no update on the new class yet so far??).. T.T gotta give it a miss.. hope the rest of frens will enjoy.. (well.. who wouldn't, really.. we've always enjoyed the dance for any of dbsk songs, don't we?) *sniff* anyway.. will be back soon and do some proper postings xD annyong!! till then, do take good care of yourself k (to anyone who happened to read this journal, if any =)) <33

Tags: random rantings

Miss you.. lao shi..

: kpopangel; June 28th, 2008

Current Location:: bedroom

Current Mood:: gloomy

Current Music:: Gone - N'Sync

I've never really written a blog before so I can count this as my first attempt. Not that I don't wish to write.. it's just that.. I suck at writing.. really.. however, something compelled me to write today.. It's 2:58am now.. and it's Jun, 28 today. There's nothing fancy about this date. But, this is the date I won't forget for the rest of my life, I guess.. Cause this date marks the day you left us behind. It's been a year since you passed away. Time really flies.. It's still fresh on my mind.. the days we would attend your classes. How I'd always look forward to Tuesday's dance classes, cos it means another J/Kpop dance class with you.. and i always loved your choreo so much. I can still remember clearly how you'd use your favourite Shinhwa songs for our warm-ups.. (you said there were our favourite and by then, we'd have known the songs by heart.. well, you bet.) Paradise, Your Man, and yeah.. the first time i attended your class you choreographed the dance steps for Shooting Star.. and that really got me hooked for your classes.

Then, I'd do some stalking over your blogs. Notice how you always seemed to be so sad and troubled with life. That's the last thing I (and all of us who know you, for that matter) would expect from you, seeing how you're always the sunshine boy, laughing and joking around.. but little did I know..

Still remember the day of Evoke, the musicals, where you acted as a faithful lover who died in the end.. for some reasons, I don't feel good seeing you lying there on the stage.. you looked too peaceful, too much to my liking.. That was not long before you left us. Perhaps, little did you know.. that your friends and students could still be mourning till this very moment, the way your parents look, the sadness in their eyes, when i visited your wake.. (I'm so sorry I didn't get to visit you often..), still remember the fateful day I saw people reading newspaper inside the bus (only then I found out about that incident..).. that you decided to end your own life at that fateful day.. i guess you're tired of living, you can't stand the pain anymore.. it's okay.. we don't blame you (i know.. they're not even sure it's a suicide case, are they? but i guess that wouldn't change a fact, that you're gone.. no matter what the reason or cause is). Still remember that two days before you left, we were still attending your class.. dancing together, and you're taking the video of the class, at the end of the class and the way you casually said goodbye, as if nothing's wrong.. Can still remember how the day after, we're all dancing in the class.. but no one can even seem to concentrate.. well who can? the little studio reminded us so much of you... And I can remember vividly my dream on the day before it happens.. do you really come to my dream? to say goodbye? Well, I don't know anymore..

And then, a lot of what-ifs in our minds.. what if somebody found you and your car just few hours earlier, what if somebody talk to you to lessen your burden, what if.... then probably you'd still be alive...

老师, how've you been? Hope you'd lead a happier life up there.. Miss your classes a lot, miss the cheerful you, miss how you'd say "Good Luck" every time you asked us to dance on our own.. and you'll just sit, stand, or squat down, looking at the class from the little corner of the room.. and correct some little mistakes here and there ("just sharing some pointers", you'd say).. miss how you'd arrive early before class and sat down just outside the class, chit-chatting with other students. Though I'm never really one to be close to you, still there's some part missing.. yes, that's how meaningful you are to the world.. to us.. we've lost a great teacher forever.
老师, there's nothing much that I can say for now.. except.. do take a good care of yourself, and continue to watch over us who's still down here struggling with our everyday lives.. Till we meet again..

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
Right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..

To: our dearest laoshi, Ishi.. Rest in peace.. You're deeply missed and you'll live forever in our hearts.. Goodbye gravity angel, may your passion for dance stays with us forever.
Ishi's blog: http://ishi-2011.livejournal.com/ (not sure if i can direct link to his blog like this, if i can't, just let me know and i'll remove it)

Tags: ishi, laoshi, one-year

Shinhwa, Shinhwa, Shinhwa~~

: kpopangel; June 7th, 2008

Current Location:: bedroom

Current Mood:: aggravated

Current Music:: Dashi Nae Gyutero - As One ft. Son Ho Young

sorry if it's old.. just love this article so much.. hehe you'll find out why!

*Credits to coolsmurf~http://coolsmurf.wordpress.com...

Shinhwa members, Lee Minwoo and Andy was on MBC variety, “Golden Fishery: Radio Star” yesterday as they revealed the actual reason behind Shinhwa leaving SM Entertainment when their contract expired, why Shinhwa members got into fights and Minwoo apologising to his ex-girlfriends.

Shinhwa has already been together for 10 years and everyone is very curious as to whether they have fought with each before. The host asked if any of them fought over the past 10 years and Minwoo replied, “I did scold JunJin before but the only time I fought was with Shin Hye Sung. We even saw blood at the end. The host continued to ask for the reason to which Minwoo smilingly said, “Hye Sung once he drinks one drop too many, he likes to cling onto people and start talking non-stop. So there was once when we were drinking and he was at it again. At that time, I needed to go to the toilet but he kept holding me back. I just hit him because I really needed to go and then he retaliated and hit me back. We traded blows one after another and it became a big fight.

Minwoo also revealed that they often get into fights because of silly things. And one of the most ridiculous one was because of a fart. He revealed, “Sometimes, I will give out a fart but I will lay the blame on someone else. But some of them hate this kind of joke and so we will end up quarrelling in the end.”

They also revealed why they ended their contract with SM Entertainment. Minwoo said, “When Shinhwa contract with SM was up, they only wanted to re-sign some members only not all of us. We felt that we couldn’t give up Shinhwa and thus decided to leave SM Entertainment as a group instead.

Minwoo also said sorry to the female artistes whom he said he liked on a variety show last year. When the host asked if such a thing happened, Minwoo said, “I was very naive then and accidentally blurted out their names.” “I never thought that there was a need to protect their privacy.” “Although it wasn’t my intention, I am sorry for causing them a great deal of stress and problems.”

Lee Minwoo had expressed on a variety show last year that Suh Ji Young and Shin Ae were two girls that he really liked in the past. After that happened, Minwoo said, “After that happened, I contacted them saying I didn’t mean to do that. We are now still good friends and they have their own boyfriends now.”

As fans alike said, "Shinhwa Math formulae: 6-1=0, 6x1=1" ♥♥♥♥♥♥

(Screw SM!! T^T)

on a lighter note.. ah those girls are so lucky to be liked by minwoo..!! =P
well back to topic.. argh.. SM.. again the case!! ahhh why does that d*mn (pardon the pun) Soo Man like to tear up the boybands he had made so famous and well-accepted.. luckily shinhwa members really sticked together through thick and thin.. and thus, yeah i love them the most!! no wonder this is already their 10th anniversary together.. their bond is really.. awesome *getting teary-eyed* thank God history didn’t repeat itself (H.O.T’s breakup).. i’m glad shinhwa is together even till now! they’ve been together since i was just a junior high school student! omo~ *luv luv luv* Hope they'd still continue singing for as long as they can, till their sons and daughters grow up, till forever <3 well is that too much of a hope? well, then i'd just hope they'll be as close a friend as they are now, for the longest time possible.. till they have no more strength to dance =) *ok this is gettin lame*

P.S.: SM better not do this kind of thing to our Dong Bang boys.. *mad*

Tags: random rantings

first time posting

: kpopangel; June 4th, 2008

Current Location:: bedroom

Current Mood:: lazy

Current Music:: none~

first time posting.. or, first time blogging to be more exact..
am supposed to be out of the house by this time, going for dance.. but am way too lazy for that.. ended up reading fics.. doing nothing.. argh.. life's getting more boring and dull these days.. hope to start work soon.. hope everything goes well.. well, random rantings.... signing off now.. gonna meet some frens later tonite. ~~

Tags: musings, random, rantings

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